April, 2014

    That Awkward Moment When …

    … the President of the college asks you what you’re going to wear to work after you transition. That is a thing that happened. To be fair, he was trying to make a helpful rhetorical point, not just casually inquiring about my fashion sense. He was trying to suggest that, when I first transition in […]

    Just Another Visit

    So I went back to my college stomping grounds this weekend, and I’m pleased to report that nothing much happened. As I noted last time, I knew going in that it was probably going to be a perfectly normal experience. I have been fortunate enough to fill my life with good people; experiences like this weekend […]

    Once More, With Feeling

    Tonight should be interesting. I’m heading back to my old stomping grounds in Mt. Pleasant, MI — home of Central Michigan University, my alma mater. There, the new me is going to meet up with some old friends. It shouldn’t be too weird. I haven’t been up there in probably six or seven years, and so […]

    Nothing Fits!

    Moving has been the push I’ve needed to really dig into the piles of clothes I bought last summer and fall when I was on my “poppin’ tags” kick. I just don’t have enough closet and drawer space for all this stuff, and to I’m starting to become very critical and draconian about what stays […]

    Moving Out II

    Last week I closed the door on my temporary apartment for the last time. It was the apartment I moved into barely a week after getting out of the mental hospital, only two weeks after trying to kill myself. My lease was up, and my ex had moved out of the house I owned, so it […]

    Phytoestrogens and Transgender HRT

    It is not uncommon in spaces where trans women congregate online to find some women talking about phytoestrogens as a possible alternative to or additive to standard hormone replacement therapy, especially for those who are attempting self-medication or those who favor alternative medicines. Anecdotally, some women claim to have had success with phytoestrogens in terms […]

    Operation Teacher Transition

    A couple of weeks ago, Nancy suggested that I do something for myself to mark the one-year of my suicide attempt. So I did — I came out at work. Well, no. I didn’t actually come out yet. But I did get the ball rolling. It felt like the right time to do it. After all, […]

    Catching Up and Coming Out

    The last month has been something of a whirlwind. My dad’s death pulled me away from work at a very busy time, made busier by a project I was involved in, and I’ve been rushing to keep up ever since. On top of that, I have been making preparations to move back into the house […]

    Overpass III

    One year ago today, April 4th 2013, was the day I almost killed myself. The day has been looming in my mind for a couple of weeks now. Not because it depresses me, not because it scares me, not because I’m afraid of the anniversary triggering some sort of spiral; but because I cannot believe how […]

    Sometimes Endings are Also Beginnings

    I feel like I’m dwelling on my dad’s death too much. It’s clogged my thinking and my blogging for the past month, and while I need to tell some of what happened there I’m not really capable of doing it right now. That last post was a bit of a disaster, narrative-wise. Besides, there’s stuff […]