I was going to do it. I was going to leave the house en femme. I was going to attend my first trans support group meeting, and I was going to be in women’s clothes from the skin out.
But then I found out that the website calendar that promoted the event is in error. Though the event is listed every week by the calendar app, it only actually happens on the second Saturday of the month. Which was last Saturday.
The confusion was partly a reading failure on my part. The event description mentions the second Saturday information, and another resource had mentioned “monthly meetings”. But they should probably tell their calendar program to stop listing it as a weekly event (other events at the facility with monthly occurrence don’t appear weekly). And I’ve since found out that the next monthly meeting might not happen.
It’s a little deflating. I’d mustered up the courage, I had my wife’s support, I’d even done some shopping. All dressed up and nowhere to go. Le sigh …
More importantly, for now I’m back to square one: looking for a support circle that isn’t on the other end of an Internet connection. This group may pan out eventually, but I really would like someone to talk to sooner rather than later. There’s a second, more general gender-identity support group that meets in the same facility, but they meet on the one night a week I work until 10pm; it will be another month before I can change my schedule to attend.
I had been in such a good mood yesterday, too. Oh, pout.