Good day today. No real reason; in fact it was a really long day at work with an intolerably dull stretch in the middle. But I was alone with my thoughts all day and did NOT go into crisis mode, and this week that means Thursday is currently topping the rankings.
I am trying to find a therapist who will take my insurance AND has experience with these sorts of things. Right now my biggest fear is going to a therapist who will tell me I’m just mentally depressed or something and try to get me to change. I spent twenty years trying to change and all I got was unhappiness. Even when I was crisising earlier this week, I was still happy on the edges. I don’t want that to go away yet.